highschool .

     september 28th 2026

    with the 1st quarter of my junior year coming to an end, i've truly been reflecting on the experiences i've faced over these past two years in high school. in each semester, there have been so many different things that have built me into who i am now. looking back at freshman eula is strange in so many way because, in a variety of aspects, i'm still so much of her, but then at the same time i'm a completely different person. when i think back to my freshman year i first think of how much i disliked it at first lol. since i was transferring, i knew that going to a new school wouldn't be easy, but i also didn't expect it to hit me as hard as it did. i had a lot of upperclassmen friends and some people from dance, so i thought i would be pretty decent at finding a place. however, i soon realized that the people i knew had other people in their lives and their own friend groups. for the first couple of weeks i spent lunch in the bathroom or hid out in my dance teacher's class lol. 

    despite the very rough start, by the end of september i had met some people that i'd soon spend the majority of my time with! by the end of school i had tried new things and met new people, but i still felt as though i was still very much within my comfort zone. although i hadn't fully branched out yet, i learned how important it is to give change time. i used to have a problem with being incredibly impatient when it came to adapting, especially in my freshman year. i wanted to find a group of people that i could open up and be best friends with IMMEDIATELY. i didn't really understand that in order to build those kinds of friendships, i had to give myself time to get to know people and meet others. that really applies to everything that i was looking for when coming into high school. the clubs, sports, teacher relationships, friends, and even just where my classes were. by the end of the year i had become familiar with all these things and in no way was i still the same girl that was scared of all the new circumstances that i once was. freshman year is one that i really look back at and just smile. as time passed it easily became one of my favorite years of high school so far. regardless of the new setting and all of the change happening i still was able to learn from it and even end the year on a high note! 

                                     

               freshman year eula at my academy's end-of-the-year awards day :)

    now sophomore year...what a whirlwind. second semester started off alright. first, i made it into my high school's cheer team after not cheering since elementary. i also made our JV competition team, which was something i was completely unfamiliar with (mind you, i'm a competitive dancer and had not even touched a cheerleading mat prior). even with not really knowing what i was getting myself into, i had a blast at the end of it! i had found a friend group for the first time and really felt happy. i was also getting involved in a bunch of different extracurriculars after being able to familiarize myself better. i had really piled my schedule up during this year in an effort to put myself out there more and to try new things. however, even though i had so much on my plate already, i still wasn't focused on the right things. with this, the majority of my sophomore year was spent melancholy and distracted (stupidly so)!! by the middle of second semester, i had fallen out with so many people and had pretty much gone through one of the hardest times of my 16 years of life so far lol. but coming out of that, i genuienly learned and gained so much!

    i found my school's Bible club, and through Jesus the people in it truly helped pick me up. God really has such a funny way in His divine timing and purpose. He covered me in His blessings even after all of the nonsense i had brought into my own life and i still can't really fathom that completely. through this club, i found friends that truly loved me and brought me closer to Him. which at this rough patch in my life, God truly knew i needed. they became more than just people i saw at school but genuinely my brothers and sisters in Christ. by the end of sophomore year, i had found my spark again after having dimmed it for so long. despite all of the craziness that was happening, i was continuously being grounded. my family and the word of God were (and are) the only things that gave me the strength to be able to get over things as quickly as i did. who am i without my Lord and my family, like fr?? not even a month after things had gone down, i was now in disneyland with my family, which was followed by being able to tour one of my dream colleges?? our Father is just genuinely that good :)) then after that i would start my first paid internship during spring break. AND then after that i would get to end my school year with a bts concert (thanks to the best big sisters in the world)!! the end of sophomore year truly outweighed every negative thing that happened prior 🩷

    now, one of the biggest things i really took away from sophomore year (i have manyy takeaways from this year) is that life is really what you make it to be. this world has really normalized the concept of focusing on all the negative things. hardship is, of course, inevitable in life, but i think we’ve gotten wayyy too comfortable dwelling on it for too long. the great thing about dark times is that, in some way, shape, or form, light comes back (romans 8:18)! my family always talks about how we have a “5-day grace period.” if something goes wrong or hardship comes, then we can grieve for five days. then, when those days come to an end, it’s time to get back to work and take care of what you need to. time doesn’t stop when something goes wrong in our lives, and in many ways, that’s a blessing. in every experience, interaction, and situation that happens in our lives, there's a lesson that we can learn from and take with us as we continue our journeys. so why choose to stay stuck in the hole of self-pity and negativity when you can take those events and turn them into stepping stones? in conclusion of my long yap lol, there’s so much more for your life than the things that you think are too hard to handle. no drama, breakup, argument, fallout, injury, or difficulty should define what your life becomes. there’s so much more beyond the hard moments, and that feeling like "the world is gonna end" or "my life is over" is just temporary (it's just a feeling after all) :)  go listen to that song! have a movie night with your sisters! everything is exactly what you make of it, so choose to move on and choose to be better because you’re strong enough to !!

sophomore year me achieving one of the biggest goals i set for myself in high school!

    now finally, as a junior (still can't believe I'm an upperclassman) i've changed so much and learned so many different things that freshman me would be appalled if she saw me. right now as the eula whos a little bit older and wiser (but whos also still very much learning in every way possible) i've become familiar with being more grateful and happy about my negative experiences than i do bitter about them. i ALSO have learned that putting your care and effort into the right things is the KEY to getting through high school. i was initially going to say "not caring" is the key, but i don't think that encapsulates what I'm trying to get across. by putting your care and effort into the "right things" i mean the things that will help you grow, mature, and make your mark. yes you should care about your grades! yes you should care about your social networking and getting out there! but where i think you don't need to put your care into is the concept of performing for other people's perception of you. i used to really want to make sure that everyone was happy with who i am and that i wasn't perceived as weird or out of place. but as i've gone through high school, i've realized i really have no control over that lol! no matter what you do, what you wear, what you participate in, or who you talk to, people always have something to say! it's a cliche concept but it's so true. being yourself and proudly so is so much more peaceful than trying to please and follow everyone else. i really encourage whoever is reading this to be set apart because trying to fit into everyone elses standards and this worlds standards only lets you go so far. 

                                     me on the first day of junior year with my girls <3

    anywaysss i could talk forever lol! but, i love you guys and i hope you were able to resonate with this in some way <3 God is good all the time and all the time God is gooddd. i promise i'll try to write more often :)  so so much love!

- e.k

— ᨳଓ . things that bring me IMMENSE nostalgia — ᨳଓ .

 

⋆˚꩜｡my current fashion favs ⋆˚꩜｡

 

soooo.. as a fashion student and a girl who loves cute graphics, yk I had to make a post on my fashion favorites!! heres some things i am loving this summer into fall season! 

1. kitten heels 

i am LOVING all of the outfits with kitten heels. especially jeans with a cute batwing top!! the casual heel is so back and i love it. it's such a simple choice that just elevates the whole outfit. the coach kitten heels specifically are the cutest thing ever. it could be that i'm just a sucker for coach designs, but they're genuinely so adorable. with kitten heels i love how it's short enough to almost kind of be a flat but still has the heel curve. 

2. long midi skirts 

I LOVEE A LONG SKIRTTTTT. i remember in 2021 when the indie era of tiktok was happening, and I used to wear these midi ruffled skirts all the timeee. the skirts now are so so so much cuter with all of the different designs and colors. i love how the fabrics being used are light silk and flowy mesh. It gives a put-together, but also very unique-like, look. i also think the flip-flop combo with it is very cute. however it shouldn't be a casual or normal slipper like you'd wear to the beach. something a bit more polished and maybe even close to a fancy sandal. wearing a closed-toe shoe with a midi skirt can be quite risky and at times looks off-putting. 

3. isabel laurents

when i tell you i want a pair of these wedges SO BAD. these are super controversial in fashion right now, but for me it is a huge yes. i love a good wedge no matter what, but these shoes i really like specifically because i feel like it has a great balance of dressy and also street style. i just love a chunky shoe so much and the color these come in are so adorable. i feel like these style so well with baggy clothes like jorts and wide jeans. though for a more elegant-ish look, it can go so cute with a skirt or dress shorts and an off-the-shoulder blouse. 

4. statement belts 

i am such a sucker for accessories omg. statement belts are just such an easy way to add style to anything you're wearing; they're unique and show diversity in your clothing. i realllyy want to buy more belts that are colorful and have different patterns/designs for my outfits. for certain outfits, stackin belts can also be super cute, i love to see peope pull it off. 

5. foldover boots

MY OBSESSION RNN. foldover boots are so so so so so cute. it just SCREAMS fall and gilmore girls/gossip girl. i want a pair of brown ones so badddd! i love a denim skirt, sweater, tights, and a foldover boot combo for fall!! i feel like boots are kind of always in but i just love the shrugged/folded look over the shoe!! (like i said im a big sucker for chunky/big shoes) 

6. cropped cardigan tops 

i orginally saw these on tiktok from people cutting old shirts and tying them into the crop top layer. while i do like that idea and have tried it myself, i really love these cropped cardigans that are already designed like that and have a button in the middle to clip and unclip. i think it's so cute and frames the body really well. the fact that it's a layer also makes your outfit so much cuter and less basic. in the second photo, the girl isn't wearing one with a button, but hers is more like a flowy shrug?? i really like how that one looks on her, and I would love to find something like that. It's kind of the same shape as the batwing tops that are in style right now. 

CURRENT SONGS ON REPLAY ⋆‧°𓏲ּ𝄢

 1. Purple - Olivia Rodrigo 

well, first of all, her whole entire new album is going TRIPLE platinum in my room and on my AirPods every day. the entire song is just literally chills in my body and transcends me. the pre chorus when she goes 

"And it's crazy (it's crazy)

How I used to visit your town like a tourist

Now I got (I got)

A local grocery store and a favorite florist"

LIKE... it literally sounds like a coming-of-age movie at the end where the girl has finally chosen herself and is finding who she is in this brand new big city. Like, I can literally envision myself moving to New York City and just embracing all of the dreams and art that it has to offer when I listen to that verse. The way the song can go from this mellow, soft beginning that gives you a wave of nostalgia that you can't quite place yet, to then speed up into this upbeat montage of seeing the world in "purple" or, in other words, seeing the world in a newfound light is LOVELY. then, when she goes into the second pre-chorus and says..

"It's a small world (it's a small world)

When it only can revolve around us two

It's crazy (it's crazy)

I had big dreams 'til I tied myself to you"

OLIVIA??? IM SICK??? Like, this is actually my worst nightmare, and the way that she sings it so casually is just so insane to me like it got me in my FEELS. the way the music changes as she sings those lines specifically has me so baffled. the songs melody and rhythm are pretty upbeat and have this positive connotation with its sound but as you look into the lyrics, you lowkey just gotta pause. i feel like this whole album is very written in a state of limerence.  all of the things that are being said in the song are so much deeper than they seem. like girl, wdym you're shrinking your dreams because you're tied to a BOY now??? oh no no no honey plz. 

 2. Bags - Clairo (Recorded at Electric Lady Studios) 

sigh. oh clairo. this song is not new or even niche, but like, you just have to love it. it just holds so many different feelings in one melody. it has this mix of excitement, nervousness, joy, and a bit of yearning/sadness??? i feel like for me i kind of interepert it more as a song thats about entering the uncomfortable. it sort of feels like when you're at school and you're trying to talk to somebody or trying to do a task, but you're nervous and hesitating between staying where you are or getting up to pursue that action. 

"Can you see me? I'm waitin' for the right time."

like for me that just speaks that shes waiting for someone to save her from this new enviorment but she kind of has to find that spark in herself to just pick herself up and go.

  "tell you how i felt sugar-coated, 

melting in your mouth 

pardon my emotions, i should probably 

keep it all to myself 

know you'd make fun of me." 

SIGH CAUSE THAT PART IS GONNA GET ME EVERYTIMEEE. 

 3. Ain't in LA - Adela 

WHAT A QUEEN. like literally this has just been on repeat. tbh i dont even have a lyric analysis for this song it's just so good period. It genuinely just sounds so fresh and like straight out of 2016. i love how adela is bringing recognition for EVERYONE. #someonegottaholditdowninhawaii. she literally just did her big one with this one i dont even have much to say. the pointe shoes with the baseball cap and the dance like she is just so unique. the intro + chorus (whole song rlly tho) IS JUST CHEFS KISS. 

 4. Cool Kids - Echosmith 

WHEN I TELL YALL THIS IS MY SONG. growing up as the youngest daughter, my older sister was in middleschool/highschool 2014-2016. she used to play this song all the time, and it just brings me this amazing nostalgia. I'd definitely say this is my anthem for my junior year of highschool. like the instrumental of this song just CRIES highschool. if you ever need to romanticize high school or being a teenager, let me tell you THIS. IS. THE. SONG. also growing up listening to this as an elementary schooler i always saw the "cool kids" to be the high schoolers or middle schoolers. listening to it now, a little bit more grown up, is definitely kinda crazy in its own way. 

 5. Colors - Halsey 

hear me out. LIKE OK, yes, this song brings me back to musically and gacha life times. WHICH is what exactly makes it so good to listen to unironically. i mostly got brought back to this song because of the amount of tiktok edits of shows/books i reach and watch with it. BUT, that takes away nothing from its already amazing instrumental and vibe. like you are lying if you tell me that this song doesn't make you feel anything. 

"Everything is blue His pills, 

his hands, his jeans 

And now I'm covered in the colors 

Pulled apart at the seams 

And it's blue 

And it's blue 

Everything is grey

 His hair, his smoke, his dreams

 And now he's so devoid of color 

He don't know what it means 

And he's blue"

HE'S SO DEVOID OF COLOR?? HE DONT KNOW WHAT IT MEANS?? 😭😭 like plz the way the lyrics, vocals, and lyrics perfectly capture this feeling of losing your spark and just being torn is crazy to me. let me be the first to tell yall.. EVERYBODY IS SLEEPING ON OLD MUSICALLY/GACHA LIFE SONGSSS. 

anyways guys! thank you for listening to my yap hehe,

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i love you all!! stay blessed, mwah! 💓💗